Yesterday was about sifting priorities.
I missed my post yesterday. I was with one of my longest-standing friends, and they took priority. Yesterday I turned down a project that on the surface was “perfect” for me. I thought about it for over a week, and I concluded that while it seemed to be everything I want on a platter, I have committed (only to myself) to other, longer term paths which would probably be compromised if I accepted the work.
I feel rather conflicted about both choices. I promised to write a blog every day for a year: I basically have to ‘start again’ if I am to live up to that commitment. Maintaining a very long-term relationship took precedence. Regarding the work, I have for too long done what is ‘expected’ of me, rather than following my own call, and my longer-term goals which are in the process of becoming more concrete. It would be a tragic time for me to deviate from something that has been in the making for over five years, and for which I have just managed to clear the space.
It’s hard at times to judge our priorities. Although a bit conflicted on the surface, my deeper peace and relief tells all. Its a lesson to me in practicing what I preach: keeping focus on the longer-term consequences of immediate decisions. However difficult.